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My Only New Year’s Resolution

To live my life on purpose. 

no regrets. 

I’m knitting. Too much. I cut my own hair. I wear plaid. I feel both lost and grounded all at once. This is still a very strange time in my life. 

Sometimes I think that just getting in the car and driving as far as she will go is the best thing I could do. 

I look at my friends who are doing amazing things. Though they are admittedly not simple things. It makes me wonder what I’m doing that’s amazing? 

While I do believe in many ways that right now maybe making coffee is my calling I often feel the tug on my heartstrings of something bigger, something better and something more. 

I do not for one second regret any of the choices that I have made but maybe I’m just getting restless. 

One day I’ll buy that plane ticket. One day I’ll hit the road. And it will be glorious. 

Sometimes I think the key to living is to support the shit out of everyone and everything. In the hopes that one day the world will repay the favour and your life will take a turn for the best. 

Other times I think the key is a long run and a hot shower. And other times its just chocolate. 

23

Yup so far you can go fuck yourself. 

This moment I feel: ugh. 

I feel old. 

I’m getting to be the age where people expect more of me than good grades and a paycheck. Ugh. 

I quit. 

Thanksgiving

THIS was my first post almost two years ago now. 

I posted a list in there that listed everything I was thankful about. After having my first round of thanksgiving dinner with one of my favorite families I feel like this is appropriate. 

Here is the new list. See how things can change.

1. Everyone I met throughout university. All of you changed me and helped make me who I am. I will never stop being thankful for that. 
2. My Grandmother. Two years ago I couldnt see her because she was sick. Last month we lost her and I miss her everyday. 
3. My housemates. I will never stop loving 136. You boys were my family last year and I wouldn’t change a thing. 
4. THEATRE. While I don’t do as much as I should. It makes me, me. 
5. Musicals. about 4 years ago I had a discussion with my dad about how they were gone and I wanted them back. Then Hugh Jackman hosted the Oscars and BAM. 
6. The two years I spent in counselling. I’m not even near done but damn what a difference. 
7. Doing the things that seemed impossible and giving up the things I thought were right when they were really wrong.  
8. Everyone I have ever met through work, conferences and any other means. You have all had an impact on me beyond words. Thanks. 
9. Getting my tattoo. 
10. Knowing that at the end of the day we are all in this together and that I will never stick to the status quo ;)