February 2012
2 posts
job, husband, kids. Why does that seem so hard to get to step one.
I don’t belong to Mac anymore. My heart will always be Mac’s but its not mine.
January 2012
1 post
Living life on purpose is a whole lot easier than I thought it would be. Now to live it on purpose regardless of what anyone else thinks.
My Only New Year's Resolution
To live my life on purpose.
no regrets.
December 2011
3 posts
I’m knitting. Too much. I cut my own hair. I wear plaid. I feel both lost and grounded all at once. This is still a very strange time in my life.
Sometimes I think that just getting in the car and driving as far as she will go is the best thing I could do.
I look at my friends who are doing amazing things. Though they are admittedly not simple things. It makes me wonder what I’m doing that’s amazing?
While I do believe in many ways that right now maybe making coffee is my calling I often feel the tug on my heartstrings of...
November 2011
3 posts
Sometimes I think the key to living is to support the shit out of everyone and everything. In the hopes that one day the world will repay the favour and your life will take a turn for the best.
Other times I think the key is a long run and a hot shower. And other times its just chocolate.
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Yup so far you can go fuck yourself.
October 2011
4 posts
This moment I feel: ugh.
I feel old.
I’m getting to be the age where people expect more of me than good grades and a paycheck. Ugh.
I quit.
Thanksgiving
THIS was my first post almost two years ago now.
I posted a list in there that listed everything I was thankful about. After having my first round of thanksgiving dinner with one of my favorite families I feel like this is appropriate.
Here is the new list. See how things can change.
1. Everyone I met throughout university. All of you changed me and helped make me who I am. I will never...
September 2011
3 posts
I feel like I am finally becoming the person that I always wanted to be.
I never even gave it a second thought
I never thought at all that there would be a moment when I would miss going back to school. But I do. That moment is now. I miss the excitement and the laughter and the things that went with it. Life doesn’t stop for anyone I suppose but wow. years gone by and times shared are memories forever. Keep moving forward or you’ll be left behind.
August 2011
22 posts
Communting
There is something about commuting that makes you homeless.
You cease to belong somewhere and you just are kind of transient everywhere you are. You aren’t ever really fully present at home because you are constantly thinking about the next time you have to go to work, you are never really at work because you are dying to get home and the only place you really are present is on the...
Today
I quit my job.
I joined the NDP.
I’m eating eggs for dinner.
No regrets. But I understand nothing.
If only happiness were easy to garantee.
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Walk Away →
I am sorry
Dear readers,
Though few of you there may be. I have been overworked and over tired and I am trying to launch a new blog at talesofawannabefoodie.blogspot.com.
Its a lot of work.
I am dying. I’ll be back soon.
I am today someone totally different than the person I was yesterday. Let alone a year ago.
if not now when?
I’m tired of waiting for the right moment to go and do those things that I have always wanted to do. Whats stopping me? nothing.
Time to break the cycle. Dont give in. Dont give up. Do something drastic. Get on that plane.
Sometimes you just needs someone to remind you that you are you and that no matter what thats fine.
I might not know what I want. But for right now I’m ok with it. Taking things as they come and not being scared of it is not my forte but it will be.
A Change'll do you good
Things that made today better
Text messages
Great Big Sea
Dane Cook
Beer
Tuna Sandwiches
I miss you
I miss you Grandma. I miss you an awful awful lot. An awful lot.
Do what you feel
Today at my grandma’s funeral I cried, I laughed, and i did something i wouldnt have expected. I reached out to family members who have been estranged from my immediate family for 15 years. Its hard to explain but the funeral was so much closure and so important to me. I just know that if I hadnt done what I felt I would feel guilty. Do what you feel.
“When I look in the mirror, I know I’m looking at someone who isn’t sure she...”
– Nicholas Sparks (Dear John)
Do not stand at my grave and weepI am not there. I do not sleep.I am a thousand winds that blow.I am the diamond glints on snow.I am the sunlight on ripened grain.I am the gentle autumn rain.When you awaken in the morning’s hushI am the swift uplifting rush.Of quiet birds in circled flight.I am the soft stars that shine at night.Do not stand at my grave and cry;I am not there. I did not die.
Struggling
I feel like I’m struggling. A lot.
Being home has brought with it and indeterminable set of problems that just exist because I exist.
I’m broke. Oh so painfully broke.
Working is awesome but after just a week all of the things that I loved and hoped and believed in in this organization seem to be crashing down around me.
I miss school so so so much.
I want to get away. Its...
I don’t pray. But I did yesterday and I have never ever prayed harder.
July 2011
18 posts
I am myself someone completely different than the person I thought I might be. It’s ok. I’ll learn how it works someday.
I'm too young to be this old
I guess you're right
Commute. Job. Coffee. Work. Life.
and because I miss you lately…yeah you were right…AGAIN!
Musings on dating (or the lack thereof)
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Sometimes I wonder
You know that sometimes I seriously reconsider everything in my life.
What if I changed my name, sold all of my things, moved away and took off on an adventure? What if I bought that plane ticket I have been dying to buy and just left? Consequences be damned? Would it change me? Would I be different? Would I lose people?
I just don’t know. I feel like I should be on a plane and doing the...
One thing at a time
I need to just let one thing at a time happen. One thing at a damn time.
becoming the person I think I want to be is a lot harder and requires a lot more courage than I ever expected. It also requires me to have to really listen to what I want and what I need and shut out other opinions on what I should or shouldn’t be doing. I haven’t really done that before. I just have to remember there’s no map for this.
I strive to always be a little bit ridiculous
Because one day I will realize that I was too serious anyways and at least I can say that I tried.
I have stuck with Harry until the bitter end.
When I was 9 or 10 I started reading the Harry Potter books. It was just about 6 months or so before HP and J.K. Rowling became a worldwide phenomenon that I completed the first book I think. Harry has grown with me and his story and the magic have been with me my entire life. Through everything the story was there. The first time I stayed up all night I was reading Harry Potter. I knew...